Shadow Of Consciousness

I could never picture your face
I had to look at a photo
to see you.
Though you were in my dreams
it was just a feeling,
a shadow of consciousness
that you were there with me
no matter hard I tried
to picture you,
I couldn't.
I have now stopped looking at photos.
I have cleared away
the ones hidden within reaching distance
for when I needed to see you.
I needed time to grieve,
properly.
To grieve over you.
The friendship I have lost
The Closeness that's gone
The mellifluous of your voice.
So little time has gone by
since making that decision
But,
I can see you.
I see so many images of you
You even visit me now
in my head
during my dreams.
This time not as shadow
but
as you.